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I am bored. I am tired. I'm not sure what's the difference between the two.But I am certain of  one thing: this monotonous, repetitive, routinely life that I have right now makes me sick. A lot. Life for me should have variations and colors. It should never be forever blue and gray.

I browsed the internet and read the news. "Campaign Violence" was what I saw and right there stopped reading the article. There's nothing new, I thought. It's the same as last election, politicians armed with guns, vote buying and cheating are old issues. Everybody expects that though nobody wants that. 

I googled anything that came to my mind, read blogs, and stopped when I came across our university's website. I've viewed the successful applicants who passed the College of Law Oral Examination. I saw familiar names, most of them were my batch mates. It never crossed my mind taking that entrance examination. I was decided that I will pursue Law in another school. It's not because I don't believe by the quality education that it offers. In fact, it's one of the  top schools here in the Philippines. What just bothers me is the system that it has. Many say that it is the microscopic model of the Philippines. From the system, to the bureaucracy, to the bureaucrats.

I looked through the window, everything is the same from heavy traffic, pile of garbage, children who beg, and prostitutes. How stupid am I? I murmured. Am I out of my mind? Worrying  about these problems wouldn't change anything. The perfect thing to do is to shut up, go on with my life and just go with the flow. Goddam me could not save this country. Even politicians  who promised heaven and earth couldn't do either. When they die their plans will go with them, like dust in the wind.

But how I couldn't be affected? I suffered from these skyrocketing prices of basic commodities. I suffered from these rampant corruption. I suffered from these deteriorating system. No one  knows the solution, I believe, because if there is one who knows, can someone tell me why are we still like this?